First Trimester Be Gone!!!!

Wow 12 Weeks today!

I had to laugh because the babycenter.com website said that soon I won't be able to fit into my old clothes. Ha! I think the second I found out I was pregnant my belly relaxed and clothes no longer fit!

I feel pretty good. I'm still exhausted at the end of the day. I'm looking forward to having MUCH more energy. I won't count on it though.

I managed to get an amazing workout at the YMCA yesterday. I did 20 mins of elliptical and 10 mins running. I even wore a tight tank top that made me look noticeably pregos. To me anyway.

Oh, and I heard the heartbeat at the Midwives the other day. 160bpm. I looked up the other 3's heart rate at the same age and they are all over the place. No figuring out boy/girl from that!!

That's it for now.

11 Week Check In

11 Weeks today.
127 pounds.
7 pounds gained and a little belly forming.

Baby is now fully a little baby. How cool. From here on he/she will just continue to grow and grow taking me along for the ride.

How fun.

I'm tired.

Real tired.

But I'm happy.

Real Happy.

I have missed my exercise twice this week for one reason or another. I feel it. I'm tired. I am looking forward for the next four weeks to pass so I can gain a little more energy.

Thank God for Nicely Playing Children

An hour in my bed in the afternoon is a MUST these days.

After feeding the farm animals, the kids breakfast,snack and lunch,
Cleaning out the fridge,
Preparing the Roast Chicken for supper,
Picking up the living room,
Doing all the morning pick up/bed chores,
Dying my hair,
Showering,
Changing a bum once or Twice,
Reading to the girls,
Helping them with School....

I was spent.
In bed I got from 1230-145pm.

I'm up now only because I know I can't leave the kids to fend for themselves for too long. BUT they are playing soooo nicely and Peyton is still sleeping. SO.....I get to sit here eating tuna and crackers and 'checking my e-mail'.

Thank God for extended breaks.

Good Day overall.

Fantastic Run at the YMCA today. I was fast and had so much energy!!!
Could have been the excessive coffee I had this morning.

Oh wait....that also may explain the need for a nap this afternoon which I just woke up from.

Anyway, whatever....a good day.

Oh, and on the way home I stopped by the second hand store and pick up a great red maternity shirt and some small transition maternity pants. Feels great to feel good in some clothes.

Finally a Run Outside...

Much better run today. The weather was mild and so my husband and I went for a run OUTSIDE.

Sooo much better than running in circles at the Y.

I could breath better, and layer up!

30mins is all I can handle at this point. I find I'm out of breath so fast!!

After our run we picked up some groceries and whew I'm pooped!! nap for me today. Too bad Adam has to work nights tonight and so he gets nap priority. Maybe a miracle will happen and all 3 kids will want to nap too.

Last Nights Horror

I have something to admit.

I HATED being at the Y for my run last night.

It was TERRIBLE.

Not the run, but all the emotions that I felt.

I'll go through them quickly for you....

* Look at all the young girls...wow I'm not young anymore
* Look at the short shorts they are wearing. I just switched to knee length pants. I hate my body
* I wasted so much time as a teenager hating my body. If only I realized what it would look like now.
* Wow look at my belly fat in the mirror. I don't look pregnant at all. I just look chubby.
* I hate that everyone is staring at me as I run around in circles.
* I miss my best friend that I worked out with years ago.
* I miss my best friends
* After I have the baby I'm going to hate being fat
* I'm old......

O.K so it goes on and on but you get the idea.

The good thing is that despite all my negative feelings I STILL ran around the treadmills on the track for 30 mins... and know I am better for it.

I forgot how it feels to be uncomfortable in your own skin and try to go to a gym. I forgot how I USED to feel. When I would only run at night with long clothes on so no one would pay attention to my body. I forgot how hard it was to get out the door. I forgot about all the years I would just hide inside, afraid for anyone to see me.

I'm So glad that I had forgotten, but it was hard to be reminded.

Instead of dreading next weeks run, I am going to look at it this way.....

The more I take care of myself, the less time I will have to spend in this 'transition' mode. The less time I will care too much about WHAT IS NOT IMPORTANT, and FOCUS on what IS important. My health.....both physically and mentally.

Two Week Weigh in

9 Weeks today.

Two week weigh in.... 124.

That is about right. I'm growing bigger all the time, but I'm trying soooo hard to stay active. I had to take a week off as I was busy taking care of 3 puking children, but I did manage a treadmill run last night and hopefully one tonight.

The run at the YMCA yesterday was difficult. I find I get out of breath easily these days. I think it could be an increase in blood flow thing. I will just keep my runs steady and at a decent pace and listen to my body.

There really is a baby in there

I got to see the baby on an ultrasound yesterday! Pretty much looks just like the picture of the baby growing on the side bar. It was nice to see the little heartbeat. There is always that moment of trepidation....that I'm not really pregnant and it has all been in my head.

There it was....all snug inside and growing strong.

Yes there was only one, and I can't say I'm not a little disappointed. I would have loved twins. I've always wanted twins. I'm still kind of hoping he just couldn't see the other little one.

It was not a 'normal' dating ultrasound. My friends husband is a doctor and is training on the emergency ultrasound machine. He needed a first trimester subject to scan so of course I was more than willing to oblige. Chance to see the baby? yes please!!

Growing Everyday

8.5 weeks pregnant and my everyday pants are officially too small!!

I would have been out of them about a week or so ago but that was unwashed. There was no way I was fitting into my jeans washed!

I'm happy. Out came all the 'fat' pants and the maternity tops. The maternity tops are a little premature, but they are just so comfortable and cute! I wore a maternity looking top and skirt to church this morning and got all the oos and ahhs that I was showing.

Can't say I didn't love it!!

I realized after going through my clothes that I am not going to wear any of my summer gear until June 2010!! Into the Bin they went. In fact, I think as I outgrow thing s I will pack them away. Not to be seen until spring 2010.

I also realized that I have given away or sold just about all my maternity gear I did not love. So...to the second hand stores I go for cute dresses and summer maternity outfits. It is my fourth and last pregnancy and I'm determined to love my clothes.....and myself.

I don't want a lot of clothes (too many choices overwhelm me anyway). Just a few cute pieces that will carry me through the season.

I was hesitant to buy a couple of in between pants (for now till April), until my friend reminded me that I will still be able to us them after the baby is born....September till at least Christmas. Thanks Val!! I've also heard some great things about the BELLA BAND... Any thoughts??