I manage a country homestead and the lives of my 4 babies ages 10,8,5 and 3. I LOVE TO RUN and NEED to keep healthy and fit for my SANITY!! Seriously....All problems are solved when I am running.

Making MY health a priority allows me to be the mother and wife that I need to be for them.

Friday, August 28, 2009

I'm...O.K

I'm an emotional basket case. Yes everything is just fine.
What if I have this baby and my emotions don't go away? What if I'm just a crazy person in general and I will no longer have an excuse?? Will my friends still love me? Will they want to hang around with me? Will my husband still be in love with me? Or am I destined to be the crazy lady everyone tolerates, pats on the head and whispers about when I'm not looking.

At this point I'm not too sure about the answer.

5 comments:

Allyson said...

Alison, you are just hormonal. All Will Be Well! You are a dedicated momma taking care of so many things, including all those chickens (my goodness!, you have a beautiful family and a husband who loves you. The pats on the head you will get are from admirers! Enjoy the rest of the summer.
Allyson

The Kerr Family said...

Yes, your friends will still love you. Yes, we will still want to hang around with you. Yes, your husband will still love you. And yes, you're destined to be a crazy lady (b/c we'll all be that lady at some point). Worst case, your emotions don't go away after Audrey arrives - then you talk to your doc and get help. The most important thing for you to do is to take good care of yourself and your family ... don't overextend yourself or commit to anything new or big. I have faith that you'll be just fine and all you need is to meet your last baby and snuggle her in your arms. It's really remarkable how a newborn looking up at you can help you put it all into perspective.

Eric and Mary Vanderveen said...

OK....after reading your blog for awhile I am going to leave a comment.....brave huh???! I admit, I think you are one brave woman with the work you do PLUS homeschooling? I am a blessed mother of 5 children(my oldest turned 9 yesterday!)and I live in town with a smallish property and my children go to school. So it's no wonder you feel the way you do! Women tend to think of all the things that still need to be done, look around and what still needs to be cleaned, and pray for the strength to do so. But I think we tend to get it wrong! We have to pray for the strength to do all the things that we've been given to do, thank Him for the new day and the rest(even though it's ALL still there) won't seem as bad!
Your hormones are rampant.......and will be for a real long time. Our youngest is 4 months old and I literally fall into bed every night already asleep. But as my mom keeps telling me, it's the phase of our lives! It will be like this for a few years and then we will blink and it will all be different!
Yes you are NORMAL! Your husband will still love you, your kids will, your friends will but above all the LORD will still love you and HE will give you what you need in your incredibly BLESSED task as wife, mother, housekeeper and all the rest..in your case, teacher as well! I just want to wish you all the best in the next months ahead, and you'll do it! HE will give it to you!!
But do make sure you take good care of yourself, you make sure you do! Get enough rest, housework and cooking can wait, your baby and you can't!!

Anonymous said...

Can I just say that I have personally seen you fragile...and maybe even a little crazy...and love you all the same...

Suzin

momofthecrazies said...

Alyson, your friends will always love you! We love you because of your honesty and willingness to share yourself with us. I'm so looking forward to hearing about Audrey's arrival!