I went for another run last night. I must be coming out of my rut because that is two whole runs in a week! Sad but true.
I figure if I don't want to start having knee problems again I really should run more than just on race day ;)
As you all know by now I do a lot of thinking when I run. I think it is the blood flow or something.
Anyway, as I easily ran up hill with the wind at my back (thank you God for the help) I couldn't help but notice that running 30mins was easy for me.
My thoughts turned to the first time I ran. The first time after taking a long break from running, and the first time pretty much doing anything new. I can remember how difficult it was. What I could not remember was when it all started to feel better? When did I start to feel better? At what point did I become a runner? When did I recover from my eating disorder and how?
In other words....How do we go from There....to Here? From Then....to Now? And HOW do we change???
The answer???? MY ANSWER???
One step at a time. One decision after another.
I became a runner just as easily as I became lazy. I become depressed and sick just as easily as I become happy and joyful again. I get fat just as easy as lose weight.
One day of skipping a run, one more glass of wine then I should.....another night of eating a sandwich before bed.....and so on it goes.
I find it amazing how I slip in and out of health.
For ME, the saying holds true.... "Don't let the Devil get a foothold in your life". I get that . I get that almost every day as I fight off my addictions. I get that in my physical life, marriage, personal life and spiritual walk.
That is also why I don't freak out. That is how I stay motivated to just keep going. That is how I stop beating myself up over mistakes made and I just start over again. I don't look at next year. I look at tomorrow knowing that every decision I make will matter. Every step counts. I still want to run my marathon but will focus only on tomorrow. I no longer make promises because I know how easy it is to slip up and disappoint myself.
That is also why when you tell me that you could 'Never be a runner', I just smile ;)