I realized something last night.
For the past two weeks I've been living off of sugar.
Normally I eat pretty well. I allow myself treats every once in a while but we are not the type of family to always have goodies in the house. Why? because sugar is not good for you and we will eat it ALL in one day.
But, for the past two weeks there has been a steady stream of goodies. REALLY yummy goodies flowing through the house. That is what I get for having amazing friends that have been dropping off meals complete with dessert.
I realized last night that I'm becoming quite addicted to the sugar rush. I'm now CRAVING a sugar high only to be fulfilled by sweats, a glass of wine or a really strong coffee.
I'm noticing my mood beginning to shift. I'm getting weepy as I crash. My inner deep down soul mood is becoming more negative and cranky....depressive.
I need to FORCE myself to eat properly. To make a salad or a healthy shake and take my omega 3's and vitamins because at this point I don't WANT to bother. I can pretend to be enjoying all the goodies but I need to take a stand for myself before my mood shifts even more. Before I spiral down into a depression and lose control of the situation. I feel it. I've been here before and I know enough to stop before it is too late. I love my children too much to allow myself to be miserable around them.
My husband is off work for 4 months and I need to not think of how sad I'll be when he returns. No..I need to get outside, go for a hike in the woods with the kids and ENJOY this time we have together.
Or maybe I just need a few days of sunshine....