I manage a country homestead and the lives of my 4 babies ages 10,8,5 and 3. I LOVE TO RUN and NEED to keep healthy and fit for my SANITY!! Seriously....All problems are solved when I am running.

Making MY health a priority allows me to be the mother and wife that I need to be for them.

Monday, October 5, 2009

2 Weeks Postpartum Blues

I realized something last night.
For the past two weeks I've been living off of sugar.
Normally I eat pretty well. I allow myself treats every once in a while but we are not the type of family to always have goodies in the house. Why? because sugar is not good for you and we will eat it ALL in one day.

But, for the past two weeks there has been a steady stream of goodies. REALLY yummy goodies flowing through the house. That is what I get for having amazing friends that have been dropping off meals complete with dessert.

I realized last night that I'm becoming quite addicted to the sugar rush. I'm now CRAVING a sugar high only to be fulfilled by sweats, a glass of wine or a really strong coffee.

I'm noticing my mood beginning to shift. I'm getting weepy as I crash. My inner deep down soul mood is becoming more negative and cranky....depressive.

I need to FORCE myself to eat properly. To make a salad or a healthy shake and take my omega 3's and vitamins because at this point I don't WANT to bother. I can pretend to be enjoying all the goodies but I need to take a stand for myself before my mood shifts even more. Before I spiral down into a depression and lose control of the situation. I feel it. I've been here before and I know enough to stop before it is too late. I love my children too much to allow myself to be miserable around them.

My husband is off work for 4 months and I need to not think of how sad I'll be when he returns. No..I need to get outside, go for a hike in the woods with the kids and ENJOY this time we have together.

Or maybe I just need a few days of sunshine....


AnnG said...

Get rid of the SUGAR!! Take yourself and the kids for a nice long walk....even if it's raining!! They won't care and it will get you out of the house away from the sugar and into a better way of looking at things! I'll be praying for you!

Anonymous said...

I have been there. And the detox is painful- not gonna lie. But I definitely suggest a moderate approach: allow yourself honey, dates, and other NATURALLY sweet things. Refined sugar has all the nutrients stripped out of it, so in order for your body to metabolise it, it must leech nutrients from your own stores to do so. UGLY...sugar is ugly. And it makes you feel mad, and like crap. Take 10 minutes every day while Adam is AWAY with all four kids to chop fresh beautiful veggies. Enjoy something from that organic delivery service. See the beauty in the colour, see the beauty in growing something gorgeous. Remember how much you believe in feeding your body what it needs.
Yours truly, a recovered (ing) sugar addict.
ps- it's okay to take tylenol/advil to get over the withdrawal headaches...

Nancy said...

Me too.

The sugar thing can be a problem and it has the same effect on me. Bad, useless sugar! I like the naturally sweet approach with raisins and dates. Even fresh fruits will help dispel the craving for me if I can just be disciplined enough to eat fruit first!

And the walk outdoors helps too.

momofthecrazies said...

Hope the rain stops and you're able to see some sun!