I manage a country homestead and the lives of my 4 babies ages 10,8,5 and 3. I LOVE TO RUN and NEED to keep healthy and fit for my SANITY!! Seriously....All problems are solved when I am running.

Making MY health a priority allows me to be the mother and wife that I need to be for them.

Monday, July 27, 2009

O.K I'm ready to admit it. I'm cranky. Really Really cranky. I just don't have any patience or tolerance for anything right now.
I'm in a good mood if that makes sense. I just have this cloud over me that wants everything to go away.
I want the rain to stop, the sun to not be so hot, the kids to be angels and independent and not get dirty, the sunporch to magically finish itself, the garden to be weeded, the grass to stop being so weedy, the fence to look perfect, the chickens to stop pooping, the bugs to stop nesting in the chicken coops, the laundry to walk itself upstairs, supper to make itself, my homeschooling stuff to be all done and prepared for September, the baby stuff to be bought.....and have enough time left over to go out for dinner with some friends and head to the beach.

Is that too much to ask?

O.K it is.

Fine then. I just want my attitude to reflect joyous miss Sunshine so I can enjoy all of it and so my children realize that deep down I really do love them, and love being around them...Cause right now I just want everyone to go away....but as soon as they do I'll cry because I miss them and feel guilty that I'm sitting on my butt doing nothing.

Sigh......

1 comment:

Ann said...

This my dear Alyson is the story of my life! and I'm not pregnant! So what's my excuse??!! I think the same as yours...hormones!! They can be so cruel to us women! Hope you feel better soon.