I am an EXTREMILY Competitive person. Not necessarity against others, but definitely with myself.
I always need to push myself, strive to succeed in whatever I do...and beat my old records so to speak. To be honest, sometimes I drive myself crazy doing that.
You see...I know I don't stand a chance to actually Win the race tomorrow. That is o.k with me. But I really....really just want to be able to enjoy it. To go out and see how fast I am and where I stand. Not RACE.
However...I also know my competitive nature will take over and I will start to crave some sort of victory...a time? a medal for my age group? And to be completely honest, I WILL be a little dissapointed when I see I am not quite as fast as I used to be.
So now I'm nervous for the race. I feel it in my bones.
Grrrrrr...
Pray for me. I just Want to Have Fun...Really.
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