I discovered something about myself last week. Focusing,monitoring and writing down everything I eat is NOT A GOOD IDEA for me.
You see focusing on food made me well, focus on food. Not a good idea for a recovering binge eater. It would be the same if I were a recovering drug addict (ahem) and EVERY DAY I crossed off the calendar if I did not indulge. Focusing on something just makes me want it more....Sigh..
SO when I weighed myself last Monday and saw that YET AGAIN I had not lost any weight, and in fact had GAINED TWO POUNDS, life when downhill. Knowing that after ANOTHER WEEK of focusing on my food intake I was no further along it was NOT GOOD.
I can't really emphasize enough how NOT GOOD it was. In fact I would scare you if I wrote it here. Some things are just not meant to share. Anyway.....
Point is that I took the week off. I am no longer monitoring my food intake. and VOILA!!! This Monday I am down in my weight.
I am now 130 pounds and have 10 more pounds to go. I am fitting into a few more of my pants and my comfy maternity pants are starting to look too baggy.
Things are looking up. Thank God for that because I cannot go back there. I CANNOT go back to the head space I was in when I was in my 20's. I just can't do it. Just won't and thanks to years of therapy I don't have to ;)
That's it. That's all. Thanks for listening.