I manage a country homestead and the lives of my 4 babies ages 10,8,5 and 3. I LOVE TO RUN and NEED to keep healthy and fit for my SANITY!! Seriously....All problems are solved when I am running.

Making MY health a priority allows me to be the mother and wife that I need to be for them.

Monday, March 23, 2009

Never On a Monday

I love my children. I really do. In fact...they are really great kids. They play well together, and generally pretty good listeners.

But I waiver. Daily.

I wonder what on earth I'm doing with 3 and soon to be 4 children. I want to have my space. Do my own thing. Have some quiet and just BE BY MYSELF.

So then I think...what on earth am I doing Homeschooling them?? I don't WANT to be around them 24/7. I don't WANT to be here!!

And then I think....what would I do without them? I would be So lazy! I would not have the motivation to get out of bed at 7am because there would be nobody yelling at me from their crib. I would watch too much t.v, and be lonely. Or would I?

I'm used to the chaos. I'm used to the noise. Frankly I like to be busy. Just not everyday.

So. The key here is never to question my life on a Monday when my husband is at work and I have to vacuum and dust on top of everything else.


Jenn M said...

Isn't that the way.. You love them, can't stand them, love them more.

Good for you for homeschooling.. I think I'd be in a psych facility. :)

Nancy said...

And then when you're old and your husband is retired - he's always around! It's like having a kid in the house! So even at this stage, these days I'm thinking. . . I need my own space - I want to be by myself for a few hours or a day or 2. . . . - Sorry - I needed to tell someone that. . . Thanks for listening. . .